For years I remained in a holding pattern…
Waiting for the truth to finally reveal itself.
Waiting for a confession…
Something to justify my suspicions.
…undeniable proof my partner was cheating on me.
I was hopeful that God would show me exactly what I needed to see.
All I needed was proof!
Surely He could do that…
I needed solid proof my partner was cheating.
It’s the only way I wouldn’t feel guilty about leaving.
Suspicion and speculation was not enough.
There is no justification in that.
Until I get the proof I needed, my decision was to stay.
So…. I did!
I lived in a continuous state of suspicion.
This is not how life is supposed to be.
My reluctance to take action made me feel safe in a sense.
Misery almost felt normal.
It’s how I lived, until I knew I was ready to catch my partner cheating!
Here’s the truth…
I lived in fear!
But it felt safer than facing the ugly truth.
Can you relate?
I wasn’t ready to know!
So, I waited…
I paid a dear price for waiting.
Do you know how much procrastination cost!
It’s not free you know!
I thought it wasn’t costing me anything!
But I soon found out the price of waiting.
I began to realize my life was being consumed with thoughts of anger, fear, suspicion, sadness and confusion.
Time is the ransom I paid to learn this valuable lesson.
Lost time is the gift I can never reclaim, but in exchange, I gained wisdom.
Wisdom to show you a better way if your situation is similar to mine.
I must tell you….
The longer you put it off, the harder it becomes!
Your relationship must be grounded in trust and truth or it won’t last anyway.
How can you love someone you don’t trust?
I was afraid to find out the truth?
Afraid of the heartache it would cause?
The truth is…
There is a much greater price to pay for inaction than it is to take action.